After recent workplace discussions about various things including happiness I’ve realized that I feel happier than I have in months. The only thing that affects my mood is my own actions, not anybody else’s, so I’m marking this as done.
I’m not sure if this is a weird way to define my done-ness or not.
Strangely this also brings up the prospect of finding someone else which is incredibly frightening to contemplate. Right now my mental state is entirely based on my own actions. Having someone else contribute, especially during the sometimes rough first weeks/months makes me very afraid.
I’m not afraid of the typical things, heights, the dark, spiders, etc. The fear makes me feel alive, I enjoy it.